Sometimes in life you get to a point where you start to evaluate the ways you spend your time to figure out where your priorities truly lie. Being chronically ill, I tend to evaluate my life so frequently that it sometimes ends up happening on a daily basis. When every day is a challenge and doing regular “adulting” is just too hard, I have to decide how I should spend my limited energy.
Most average people can make choices (whether they like to admit they have choices or not) about how they’ll spend their time, what they’ll eat, what they’ll do, etc. But when you can’t control your own body and never know if you’ll be able to function, it can be nearly impossible to plan for anything.
Right now, I’m in a season where I don’t make plans. Aside from trying to maintain as normal of a work schedule as possible, whenever I speak with someone about tentative plans, the plans are always met with the caveat that I may not be able to fulfill the obligation. For me, in this season of life, that’s okay. I’m learning to be all right with the fact that I can’t predict how my days will look.
Even though I can’t plan and schedule my life right now, something that seems to fit into this unknown territory is my love for writing. Even if it’s only a few words per day, putting pen to paper in my journal or typing out a few sentences in Evernote releases something in me. It’s something good.
When I pour out through writing, I come alive. I start to become the truest version of myself.
Processing through words on a page is what I crave. It’s what I believe I was created to do.
I often think about “calling” and what it means to walk out in faith to do the things that God has prepared for me. Sometimes the call of God is clear, but other times I wonder if I heard Him right.
What I do know is that writing is one of the places I meet God. It’s where I ponder life’s challenges and relate them back to the truth of who I know God to be. Because I feel so strongly about the truth that God has shown me, I want to share it with others who are hurting, who are scared, and who just need a little love and encouragement.
I truly believe that writing is what God wants me to do.
So, I will be faithful in that.
Back in February, pre-Lyme diagnosis (but already quite symptomatic), I felt a tug on my heart to do more writing publicly. I had this blog but I wasn’t making content creation a priority. I was still trying to hone in on my niche and figure out what I was actually going to write moving forward.
Because of this desire and passion, I decided to jump on a free webinar to learn about how to write a book proposal. I’ve had a specific book concept in mind for a few years now and while I’d started writing some of it, I knew nothing about how to go about getting it published.
On the webinar, which was hosted by Emily P. Freeman and Brian Dixon of Hope*Writers, I felt like there was actually a chance that I could make this writing dream work. For the first time, I felt like someone understood me.
I have gone back and forth on whether I should even spend my time writing because there’s so much else I should be putting my energy into: work, dating, family, friends, church, etc. And now, I need to rest as much as I can so that real healing can happen. The list is long with the possible ways I could spend my time.
However, my soul needs me to make room for what breathes life into me.
On a cold winter night back in February, Emily P. Freeman spoke these words:
“Anything that helps you become more fully yourself is never a waste of time.”
Then, she went on to say,
“The world needs you to come alive.”
That sealed it for me.
I knew that writing was what I needed to do and I knew I needed to join Hope*Writers.
At the time, I had no idea how sick I would get and how writing would serve as a source of life when I was in my darkest places. All I knew was that I felt I had something to say that was stirring in my heart and needed to be written.
So, here I sit, on my laptop, in my bed (where I spend a whole lot of time right now), writing. I am in a place of peace, and I love it.
If you’ve ever had a desire to write, but aren’t sure where to begin or haven’t made the progress you’d hoped for, I encourage you to take advantage of this free 4-day video course from Hope*Writers.
I cannot even tell you how thankful I am for Hope*Writers! The content on the members only website and the active and engaged Facebook community have been amazing! Hope*Writers could not have come into my life at a better time.
Because of this community, I now have the confidence and clarity to pursue my writing dreams even while battling chronic illness. I’ve seen the power of words in connecting with others who are hurting, and I look forward to more connection.
Hope*Writers was also instrumental in spurring me on to write an eBook about finding hope amidst life’s difficult circumstances (I’d love to give you a free copy!)
I suppose I share this all to say that I write because writing breathes life into me and I feel forever grateful to Hope*Writers for giving me the tools to pursue what I feel called to do.
I can’t wait to see what the future holds with writing. I truly believe that it’s going to be good.
Want to see what Hope*Writer, Emily P. Freeman, has written? Here are her books:
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Simply Tuesday – I absolutely loved this one!
A Million Little Ways – A great read for anyone who longs to create!