I Just Needed to Write

I’ve been planning to write a new post for about a month now, but I just haven’t been able to pour the fullness of my heart out onto the blog. Journal entries have been piling up and it’s not like I ever run out of thoughts in my racing mind, yet still, I struggle. Something I know now more than I did one month ago is that God is good. He is. Face the facts now. He is good and He loves you.

That about sums up what I’ve been learning. God has a plan. He is in control. Even if it doesn’t make sense at the time, it’s best to trust him.

Six or seven months ago, when I was first faced with a difficult decision, God told me to trust. He revealed to me that this was going to be a season of trust. So, I tried to trust. I listened to His guidance and confirmations through the Word.

As time went by, more areas of my life were brought to the surface. I was either going to hold on to them tightly or release, knowing they’d be in good hands. I chose to release. Now, none of this was easy. I wondered why passions I once had were now gone, why I was going to have to leave family and friends I so deeply cared about, and why I had feelings I couldn’t shake. I doubted. I wondered why God would give me so many good things, only to take them away again.

God said, Trust me. So, I did.

Now, I’m in China. It’s pretty incredible. Things I’ve been praying about for months have been answered. I’ve seen God work locally in ways I never saw before. Conversations have come up naturally, where I’ve felt comfortable sharing my faith. It has been very, very good.

I’m now connected with a local body of believers whose passion encourages me daily. This week in our meeting, we sang the song Still by Hillsong.

I’ve included the lyrics here for you to read because I believe they are powerful.

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are King over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Even when we face obstacles, there’s no reason to worry. We’ve got the Creator of the Universe to listen and calm us.

I pray that you would also find a place this week to be Still and know He is God.

7 thoughts on “I Just Needed to Write

  1. Emily, I really don’t know you all that well, but I enjoy reading you. At 67 years I too am going thru a season of trust, as you call it. So I can appreciate what you’re saying. May God continue to bless you on your journey with Him . . .

  2. I’ll admit that I was surprised that you left home and went off to China again, but because I’ve seen your faith through your writing… I just knew you trusted God and followed his leading. Well done Emily. Keep living for Him!

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