I’ve been going through some heart changes over the past few weeks. It’s been both challenging and good. I’m thankful when I am humbled and brought back to a place of realizing my great need for Jesus. While past blog posts haven’t touched as much on my faith (for a lot of reasons, including the country I used to live in), I feel a need to be transparent and share what God has been teaching me.
As a follower of Christ, I aim to live my life sold out for my savior. I want to be all in on this walk with the Lord. However, I’ve realized time and time again how hard it is to do it on my own strength. It’s impossible, really. That’s where trusting that God will guide me comes into play.
You may have decided to make major life changes. You are on a path of personal betterment. You’re getting your life back on track. This is so good. It’s important to be in a place of peace and contentment with yourself. Whether you’ve been battling weight issues, anxiety, self discontentment or spiritual darkness, at the beginning it’s all about you. No matter your obstacles, there’s a point of brokenness where it becomes nearly impossible to see your challenges in light of the bigger picture.
There were times when my well-meaning faithful friends tried to tell me that none of my issues mattered in light of eternity. Logically, I knew this, but I wouldn’t believe it. I was feeling that low. My faith in God’s perfect will was shaken. I couldn’t understand why I was struggling to get out of bed in the morning, why I couldn’t just have clear skin, why men continued to break my heart, and so much more. At that point, had you told me there were people worse off than I, I would have just grown irritated instead of being grateful for all that was going right. Read more