Rest: a key component in healing and keeping symptoms at bay when facing a chronic illness.
We all know we need it.
We likely crave it.
Many times, our bodies won’t let us go without it for too long because there’s crippling fatigue involved in the challenges we face.
However, even though I know that rest is essential in my battle with Lyme Disease, I often find myself unable to adequately rest. Even when I want to rest badly enough that I’d give up almost anything for it, I still fall short when it comes to resting well.
Why is this? How could something so simple be incredibly difficult to actually obtain, especially when I spend the majority of my time in bed (the place where rest is supposed to happen)?
It may seem crazy that even though I “rest” all the time, up until I got serious about being kind to myself, I rarely felt like I was actually resting when I rested.
There are many contributing factors to this, including the symptoms of fatigue and insomnia that come along with Chronic Lyme Disease, however, I’ve recently realized that it goes deeper than that.
Living with a chronic illness, where each day is a battle, can wear on a person. Those with chronic illnesses have to manage a lot! Finding relief from symptoms while facing a chronic illness includes far more than just a little extra rest.
For many people I’ve met in the chronic illness community, their treatment protocols have included dietary changes, an extensive list of supplements and prescription medicines, detox methods, rest, exercise, prayer, meditation, use of essential oils, and more. There’s often a mix of traditional and herbal treatment. Because each person’s body is different, the treatment that works for them will be individualized, even if they have similar conditions. It’s a matter of trial and error until they can find the right system.
I’m at the place in my treatment of Lyme, co-infections, Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, etc. where I am worn down and need serious rest in addition to my current treatment protocol. I’ve been burnt out and depressed, feeling like I’m constantly on the verge of drowning. Stress and feelings of unmet expectations take me into a dark place where I feel like I can’t go on.
Because I’ve felt so terrible over the past several weeks, I’ve been reflecting on what I actually need in order to get better. What I’ve learned through personal reflection and prayer is that the most crucial thing my body needs right now is for me to be kind and give myself grace.
Hello sweet girl:
I am so sorry you’re hurting! I’ve been in your place hundreds of times in my own battle with chronic illness. Even last night, I was there again.
The physical, mental, and emotional burdens that come with the territory of chronic illnesses can be paralyzing, leaving us uncertain of how to function “normally.” There’s grief that’s hard to explain to those who haven’t been in your shoes.
In all of the pain and hardship, it might seem like giving up is the answer.
The idea of letting go of your life, or of moving away and starting over, may sound appealing.
If you’re anything like me, you wish you could just run away from your problems instead of facing them head-on.
My natural tendency as a “go-getter” is to strive – to see a problem and tackle it. But, I’m to the point where I’ve grown weary. Following a treatment protocol and not seeing results can be discouraging. Living in a state of continual ups and downs is draining.
A life that includes managing a chronic illness can be a real challenge! If you’re in a similar boat as mine, I want you to know that you are not alone. The list of things you may be responsible for would be overwhelming for anyone, but when you add in debilitating symptoms life can get even more cumbersome.
While I wish that I had all the energy in the world to accomplish everything I desire, it’s not realistic right now. As I prioritize health, there are other things that grown adults should be able to manage that I just don’t quite have together. I’m learning that it’s okay. It’s even good. I know my boundaries right now.
If you’ve felt like you’re drowning while facing a chronic illness and don’t know how other people seem to live “normal lives” while facing similar challenges to yours, you’re going to see that I don’t have it all together. In fact, my life is often of the opposite of “all together”…
If you’re anything like me, then you are in good company!
Here are 19 things I don’t do as I face Chronic Lyme Disease:
1) I don’t cook
The crockpot is my best friend. I’ll throw in meat and veggies for some lunches and most dinners. Then, I drink a superfood shake of Chocolate Vegan Shakeology (blended with almond milk, blueberries, spinach, and ice) once or twice a day.
2) I don’t make plans
It’s that simple. My current schedule doesn’t allow for me to make plans because there’s a 90-95% chance that I’ll end up canceling them. Instead, everything is done on an “if I feel up to it” basis. It’s working for now.
You know what I want more than anything?
You know what I really want?
What my soul craves. What my heart longs for. What I can’t be content without.
It’s something that’s been there.
Actually, someone who’s been there.
Someone who’s been there by my side all along. Even when I was rebellious. Even when I sought my own pleasure instead of the true satisfaction that can only be found in one place.
He was there.
But somehow, even knowing the truth, my tendency is to slip away. I start to wander and almost lose myself as I seek adventure before the source of adventure.
I have sought blessings instead of the one who calls us blessed.