Rest: a key component in healing and keeping symptoms at bay when facing a chronic illness.
We all know we need it.
We likely crave it.
Many times, our bodies won’t let us go without it for too long because there’s crippling fatigue involved in the challenges we face.
However, even though I know that rest is essential in my battle with Lyme Disease, I often find myself unable to adequately rest. Even when I want to rest badly enough that I’d give up almost anything for it, I still fall short when it comes to resting well.
Why is this? How could something so simple be incredibly difficult to actually obtain, especially when I spend the majority of my time in bed (the place where rest is supposed to happen)?
It may seem crazy that even though I “rest” all the time, up until I got serious about being kind to myself, I rarely felt like I was actually resting when I rested.
There are many contributing factors to this, including the symptoms of fatigue and insomnia that come along with Chronic Lyme Disease, however, I’ve recently realized that it goes deeper than that.
Living with a chronic illness, where each day is a battle, can wear on a person. Those with chronic illnesses have to manage a lot! Finding relief from symptoms while facing a chronic illness includes far more than just a little extra rest.
For many people I’ve met in the chronic illness community, their treatment protocols have included dietary changes, an extensive list of supplements and prescription medicines, detox methods, rest, exercise, prayer, meditation, use of essential oils, and more. There’s often a mix of traditional and herbal treatment. Because each person’s body is different, the treatment that works for them will be individualized, even if they have similar conditions. It’s a matter of trial and error until they can find the right system.
I’m at the place in my treatment of Lyme, co-infections, Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, etc. where I am worn down and need serious rest in addition to my current treatment protocol. I’ve been burnt out and depressed, feeling like I’m constantly on the verge of drowning. Stress and feelings of unmet expectations take me into a dark place where I feel like I can’t go on.
Because I’ve felt so terrible over the past several weeks, I’ve been reflecting on what I actually need in order to get better. What I’ve learned through personal reflection and prayer is that the most crucial thing my body needs right now is for me to be kind and give myself grace.