What I Desire More Than Anything

What I Desire - Chronic Illness

You know what I want more than anything?

You know what I really want? 

What my soul craves. What my heart longs for. What I can’t be content without.

It’s something that’s been there.

Actually, someone who’s been there.

Someone who’s been there by my side all along. Even when I was rebellious. Even when I sought my own pleasure instead of the true satisfaction that can only be found in one place.

He was there.

But somehow, even knowing the truth, my tendency is to slip away. I start to wander and almost lose myself as I seek adventure before the source of adventure.

I have sought blessings instead of the one who calls us blessed.

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5 Things to Remember When You Have Lyme Disease

Lyme Disease - Con-infections - Bartonella - Babesia - Chronic Illness

You have Lyme Disease, huh?

I’m so sorry!

Lyme Disease is rough, and facing it can often leave us questioning everything we thought we knew about health and ourselves. Some days we may have moments where we feel relatively “normal” before we’re spun into a place of pain, neurological symptoms, and grief.

For me, personally, most days are pretty rough. Since my diagnosis, I have seen some better days, but they are always followed deep valleys. Treatment may be working, but when you add in Herxheimer (die-off) reactions and flares, healing doesn’t seem to come as quickly as I would have hoped.

Each day is a battle of both the body and the mind. In order to help myself heal effectively, I have to remember a few things. If you’re also fighting Lyme Disease and co-infections, these simple reminders may make a difference for your outlook.

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Facing the Fear of Missing Out When You Have a Chronic Illness

The Fear of Missing Out When You Have a Chronic Illness

Back in November there was a workshop for Hope*Writers. In the summer when I got the information about the workshop, I was in such a poor health and financial situation that I knew it wasn’t going to be feasible to go this time around.

Knowing I wouldn’t be able to meet my writer friends in real life was a hard pill to swallow, but when I made the decision to instead purchase the online pass to watch the conference recordings I knew it was the right choice.

Fast forward a few months to the weekend of the conference. As I laid in bed in pain on the days my writer friends were meeting each other and delving into teaching that would spur them on in their callings, I was jealous.

I was frustrated and angry that a party was going on and I was stuck at home watching it from afar in a highlight reel on social media. It was another situation where I was invited, but I couldn’t go. This seems to be a common occurrence in my chronically ill life. If you have a chronic illness, you can probably relate!

As I scrolled through Instagram and Facebook on the days of the Hope*Writers Workshop, I grew discontent with my current life situation. I was tired of being sick. I didn’t want to miss out on fun and on learning the skills I needed to continue in my calling to write. Sure, I would eventually watch the conference recordings, but it wouldn’t be the same as being there in person. There’s energy and excitement that comes from connecting in person that can’t be replicated through online avenues.

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Does Anyone Understand? My Battle With Lyme Disease

My Battle with Lyme Disease

Tears fall down my cheeks nearly every day. From the pain, to the intensified symptoms during die-off reactions, to the emotional overload of it all, I am left feeling broken and alone.

I want to hide. I want to run. But, I don’t even know where to go.

Plus, my legs won’t carry me very far.

Each day I battle with physical, mental, and emotional wounds that come with fighting chronic Lyme Disease and co-infections.

I never know how I will feel from one minute to the next, so life is almost impossible to plan.

Constantly weighing the pros and cons of each daily task, I must determine what is necessary to complete and what I need to do for my mental health. There’s not enough energy to go around to function like a normal human being, so sacrifices are made for the sake of treatment.

When I have a good day, I can’t even fully embrace it because if I try to do everything I’d like, I know that the next two days will be spent in bed recovering.

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5 Ways to Pray for Your Chronically Ill Friend

5 Ways to Pray for Your Chronically Ill Friend

Hello there! If you’ve come here to learn how to pray for your chronically ill friend, I’m really excited that you’re taking this step to be a source of support for them. Here’s a short guide to praying for them. (This guide used to be available by download only, but it’s now in blog post form as well. Here’s the free PDF if you’d like to download it.)

Thank you so much for loving your friend well. They need you!

1) Pray for Physical Healing

Psalm 103:2-3 says, “Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits – who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases. (NIV)

Let’s remember that the Lord can and does provide physical healing. Pray that the treatment your friend is undergoing would work and that doctors would have wisdom for how to treat. Don’t be afraid to pray that God would intervene and provide healing and relief from the physical pain and other symptoms. Ask God to supernaturally work and take away the physical burdens of the illness.

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